AND ONE DAY I FOUND AHMED

I have not come to write lately. I have felt the urge of doing it but I have been entertaining myself with other issues going on in my life. So many issues. I am all over the place emotionally speaking. But today I want to talk about a person I love. Did I say I love? Love is nothing. I adore this man! I wish I could love a little or in a more balanced way. You would think after dating for few years and meeting people that would tell me “I love you” when they meant “I sort of, kind of, think I like you”… LOL …I would learn something, but no. I cannot be like anyone else. I tried in the past but that hurt a lot more because on top of trying to pretend, I invested so much energy and at the end, it was double the disappointment. Going back to my story, I adore this man, his name is Ahmed.

We met on a dating site, on November 20th, 2018. I was doing my weekly routine of searching profiles. Yes, dating sites have been part of my life, unfortunately but sometimes pleasantly fortunate like in this case. For people like me that do not frequent the bar scene, that don’t have close friends and on top of that are introvert, dating sites are a great outlet to see what is out there. It gives me the opportunity to plan visiting another town, a mall, you name it. And this is of course, if I am lucky to click into a profile and that profile replies back. I have always at least subscribed for one month, I strongly believe that if in one month nobody captures my interest, I don’t need to keep paying memberships. 2018 had been a horrible year, romantically speaking. I had broken up…