I once fell in love with the man of my dreams. Smart, my-kind of handsome (ugly for others) but I love smart men. Anyways, we went out together, holding hands. We spoke about living together multiple times. Our kids would come to our outings few times. We were a family living in two separate houses. We kissed, we hugged, we loved each other so much and SEX never happened. I was in love with the man, the character, the genius he was. Only one time we met at a motel with the intentions of having sex but...he never had an erection. I felt guilty, I felt so fat, lol I blamed myself. At the end of that motel encounter, we both agreed that sex was not needed between us to be happy. We kept going strong from that point. We never spoke about him not having an erection. I had the guilt in my own mind and carried the burden. At the end, I was the one that ended the relationship for other reasons but not the lack of sex. I was truly in love with him that even as I left the relationship, I went into a serious depression. It took me months to recover. What I saw on your story is the lack of touching and communicating. At this point, I would easily live with someone without sex. Maybe I am asexual. Maybe he was too. We spoke about everything except that part. Now I have a new boyfriend, the best man ever. He completes me in every single way. He is just the opposite of my previous boyfriend, he is into sex ...a lot. But mentally and emotionally makes it for me the most beautiful man in my eyes. He is smart as hell, he is caring, loving and very sexual. My life is wonderful. I want you to do the right thing for you. Just like I did. Leave that person that is stationed in your life without any emotion. Leave the person that is uncapable of loving you the right way. We are people of emotions. Living like brother and sister does not cut it for me. Even if there is no sex, the rest of the relationship should be blooming, touching, caring, kissing, holding hands, doing things together. The occasional foreplay, why not. Explore your body and his. But this is more like a boring situation where you are learning NOTHING. Your are sub missing to this man for no reason, or is it religion ? Take control of your destiny, you are not a kid pending him to tell you how to feel. I am way better and way happier now when I left the relationship I called "the love of my life". It was not so perfect like I thought it was. I deserved way better, like you do.